Yes, I’ve honestly tried to change myself every year since I became self aware.
From a young age, I was always a trouble maker and I was always getting into fights and arguments with everyone. I would always be yelling and screaming at my parents and talking back. And I always felt terrible about it.
Sometimes, I would cry seeing how upset it made my parents, and I resolved in my heart “I’m going to change from now on!”, and my spirit would be filled with a renewed and positive energy.
But always – ALWAYS – after just 2 or 3 days, I would be back to my old ways….. No matter how hard I tried. It makes me choked up just thinking about how much I absolutely resented myself and where I am now.
This inability to change cost me friendships, jobs and ultimately my marriage.
FORGET THE QUICK FIX
There is no quick fix. It’s all rubbish to think there is. Change is a gradual process. It’s a movement from 10 to 9, 9 to 8. 8 to 7, etc. But everyone wants to change from 10 to 0. I’m sorry to say, but this is impossible and goes against the laws of nature…. It’s gradual.
Now that I have learnt how to clear away the deep negativity in my mind through meditation, I have begun to change over the years bit by bit, step by step.
The last 3 years have been the most transformational years for me. This is the process I have gone through.
MY PROCESS TO CHANGE:
1) Self acceptance – learning to accept that I am nowhere near perfect and totally flawed human being
2) Self reflection – being able to see how I’ve lived with the habits I’ve been stuck with, and sincerely being sorry to the people I’ve hurt with those habits
4) Letting it go – through meditation, I’ve learned how to let go of those bad habits from my mind so I have space in my mind to grow and change
5) Setting goals – having a plan for what I want to change and how am I going to move towards that change
6) Taking consistent action – consciously acting against my bad habits in the opposite way
7) Rinse and repeat – never give up, just keep going, no matter what “set back” I have
I’m *really* surprised this video is not viral! It summarizes everything perfectly:
